Friday, August 23, 2013

When I Grow Up I Want to Be....

Deciding what to be when you grow up is one of the most difficult tasks anyone can face. When I graduated from high school I had no idea what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I tried college, but since I didn't have a career in mind, it felt like a big waste of time. I decided to give college a break and enter the workforce. I have spent the majority of my adult life trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up. 

After many years, a husband, and two children I will finally be graduating from college in approximately eight months. It has taken me a very long time and at times I felt my degree would always remain a dream. But I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I changed my major more times than I care to admit and even in the last year, I was still undecided as to which route I wanted to take. 

I finally narrowed down my interest to two things, reading and writing. As many of you can presume, these are interests that do not leave a whole lot of opportunities for employment. In the end I was left with very few options; I could either do something in publishing, be a copy or technical writer, and lastly teach.

When I re-entered the college world for the fourth time in my adult years, three years ago, I did so to become a teacher. I had been volunteering in my son's school and really enjoyed working with children. Teaching them how to read and write was one of the most fulfilling things I had ever experienced. Of course half way through the process, I became slightly rebellious and decided I wanted to throw it all out the door. I wanted to write, I didn't care about the repercussions.

My rebellion lasted only about six months (luckily) the truth is that being a published author is the equivalent of becoming a successful rock star, highly unlikely. The competition is too great and I have a family I need to worry about. In the end, I decided to go for the dream of working for a publisher. I know it will not be easy, I don't live in one of the big cities, so my chances are limited. There's also the fact that I will be competing against young, fresh out of college, individuals with the freedom to work hours my family wouldn't allow. But as you've probably already seen, I'm not a quitter.

The point to this post is that sometimes deciding what to be when you grow up takes a long time. Not all of us are born destined to be one thing or another. Sometimes we need to do some soul searching in order to realize what's important to us. I want to make a difference in the world and I want to help children who, like me, aren't exactly sure which direction to take in life. I often wonder if I'd had someone in my life who cared enough to help me through my uncertainties if my situation would have turned out differently.


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